icecreambat:


NOTE: THIS IS NOT THE ACTUAL GIVEAWAY POST. THIS IS INFORMATION HOW YOU CAN INFLUENCE THE ACTUAL CONTENTS OF SAID GIVEAWAY(S). GOOD? GOOD.

so i want this post to remain at the top of my page until tomorrow and for as long as it takes me to recover from tomorrow’s finale, because:
a long while back i decided that when i go to japan in mid october, i’m going to buy random ass doujin in random ships and then give them away.
why?
because i want people to enjoy and celebrate their ships, whatever those ships are. i want to personally celebrate other people’s ships, whatever those ships are. i know i can’t do that for every single person in this fandom individually, but if i can do that for a select few, then that’s still better than nothing.
so here’s how this works – this is just the preview post, because what i need you guys to do is recommend me ships that i should buy doujin for. the obvious ones are going to be harurinharu and harumakoharu (‘cos the entire reason this idea exists is because i wanted tamucist to have doujin for her actual otp after being kind enough to take my excess harurin doujin trash off my hands lmao), but depending on your suggestions, i’m going to look into whatever seems to be people’s biggest otps.
no, i don’t know what the grand total of giveaways is going to be yet. yes, the giveaway might include more random crap, especially after moromi expressed willingness to donate some of the stuff she got. no, you don’t have to be my follower to eventually enter, but i’m thinking of picking up something extra in case the winner does (cos yeah you guys are awesome).
i’ll make posts about the actual giveaways later, probably in early november, but you can suggest me ships until october 23rd. asks, comments, whatever. just give me ideas so i won’t end up blowing all my money on nitori/iwatobi-chan.

Reblogging this for anyone who wants to contribute (will probably do a couple of times before the deadline for suggestions is up) – for the record, so far literally all of the suggestions are something/Rin. I find that kinda hilarious tbh.

icecreambat:

NOTE: THIS IS NOT THE ACTUAL GIVEAWAY POST. THIS IS INFORMATION HOW YOU CAN INFLUENCE THE ACTUAL CONTENTS OF SAID GIVEAWAY(S). GOOD? GOOD.

so i want this post to remain at the top of my page until tomorrow and for as long as it takes me to recover from tomorrow’s finale, because:

a long while back i decided that when i go to japan in mid october, i’m going to buy random ass doujin in random ships and then give them away.

why?

because i want people to enjoy and celebrate their ships, whatever those ships are. i want to personally celebrate other people’s ships, whatever those ships are. i know i can’t do that for every single person in this fandom individually, but if i can do that for a select few, then that’s still better than nothing.

so here’s how this works – this is just the preview post, because what i need you guys to do is recommend me ships that i should buy doujin for. the obvious ones are going to be harurinharu and harumakoharu (‘cos the entire reason this idea exists is because i wanted tamucist to have doujin for her actual otp after being kind enough to take my excess harurin doujin trash off my hands lmao), but depending on your suggestions, i’m going to look into whatever seems to be people’s biggest otps.

no, i don’t know what the grand total of giveaways is going to be yet. yes, the giveaway might include more random crap, especially after moromi expressed willingness to donate some of the stuff she got. no, you don’t have to be my follower to eventually enter, but i’m thinking of picking up something extra in case the winner does (cos yeah you guys are awesome).

i’ll make posts about the actual giveaways later, probably in early november, but you can suggest me ships until october 23rd. asks, comments, whatever. just give me ideas so i won’t end up blowing all my money on nitori/iwatobi-chan.

Reblogging this for anyone who wants to contribute (will probably do a couple of times before the deadline for suggestions is up) – for the record, so far literally all of the suggestions are something/Rin. I find that kinda hilarious tbh.

orz

to everyone who’s sent me messages i haven’t replied to yet, and to everyone whose comments are still in a limbo of me backlogging enough to combine and respond to them: thank you so much for wanting to share your thoughts with me. it does mean a lot, and i hope that if nothing else, getting that stuff off your chests will also help look at the full season with a more positive attitude once the initial disappointment subsides.

but i’m also gonna take a small break from replying, cos it feels like …. my tumblr is kind of turning into a complaint-zone, which was never my intention; as many bones as i have left to pick, i also feel it’s kind of counter-productive to only focus on the negative. so i’m going to try and balance that out a bit before i get back to everyone on the things they weren’t as happy with, so if it takes me a while to reply, i hope you understand.

in the meantime, here’s a random image from my files

drawingllamas:

if you think she can’t beat the shit out of you you’re 100% wrong

drawingllamas:

if you think she can’t beat the shit out of you you’re 100% wrong

A message from Anonymous
for me, i just wasn't feeling the bond between the iwatobis this season. perhaps that is what led me to feeling indifferent towards their emotional outcry and race in ep 13. the good part about episode 5 is that we got to see some of that unity through how much they cared for nagisa and later their concern towards haru...other than that, everything else felt hollow.

As much as I appreciate the decision to expand the Samezuka side on the show, Rei and Nagisa really bore the brunt of splitting focus into a hundred directions at once. Their respective episodes notwithstanding, it’s hard for me to specifically remember what they did all season, which unavoidably also affected the Iwatobi dynamic as a team. It was always going to be a 3rd year circus, sure, but that didn’t stop Nitori from getting a character arc with a definite beginning, middle, and an end.

As a result, I can’t exactly say I felt very invested in the final race (read: at all); in fact, when this scene in ep13 happened, I felt for a moment like the show was making fun of itself:

"wait, who the hell are you guys and why are you crying?"

Additionally, I don’t know how beneficial the decision to cut Rin off the Iwatobi link was, in the end. While I’m not going to cry bloody murder because of it (I understand the Iwatobi team needed their own moment of bonding without Rin, too, and Rei’s butterflies in the relay were admittedly among the few things to make me feel something during the entire episode), you could sense something missing; I just don’t feel like the rest of the season backed the Iwatobi dynamic up enough to give the relay a true sense of fulfillment, since there wasn’t really anything to fulfill. I know I did my share of throwing tantrums during episode 5 (which I still feel wasted an amazing opportunity to preface the emotional momentum in episode 13), so I’m not going to say this came as a particular surprise. But it’s another inevitable casualty of poor pacing I rather would not have foreseen.

aku-usagi:

Really really really early for Halloween… QuQ;;; for unplugged expo ahh ty to ppl who were in my livestream when i drew these orzz

~[EDIT] now available on my online store! :”D

A message from experimentalpotion
Didn´t you get the feeling that everything about rinharu was not... quiet right the entire season? I mean, ok, Rin helped Haru find his dream, and Haru thanked him and so on, and they share the same dream and future, but, agh, Rin cares so much, but Haru? Honestly... why everything about them suddenly became so so... dull? Like a dull light. I really can´t help but think that this bond had so much potential but was somehow ruined in the second season :(

I thought long and hard how to best answer this question, because in many ways it’s extremely loaded – that is to say, something I have inadvertently also thought about, but kind of not felt sure how to put into words. Because while I wouldn’t necessarily use a word like “right” or “ruined” (although that was probably just very conscious hyperbole), there was definitely something different about how their dynamic ended up being handled this season. I might need a couple of re-watches of all of the episodes to fully grasp it more objectively, so please keep in mind my response revolves more around initial impression than any through introspection at this point in time, and regard it accordingly.

In short, yes. I do know what you’re talking about. I’ve known it all throughout this season, as much as I kept telling myself that I was just imagining it. Truth is, I was always relieved that Haru and Rin spent so much time apart from one another, because the last thing I wanted was to have doubts on whether Rin’s influence was too much of a factor on Haru’s choice; as much of a shipper I am, to me it’s always been more important for these characters to grow as individuals, so they can properly be equals without the weight of emotional expectations weighing them down. Since S1 “rewarded” me for that same conviction by reuniting them in spite of their differences, I don’t feel I was wrong to anticipate S2 would do the same.

In some ways it did. In some ways, it really, really didn’t.

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In a sense, it’s a difficult topic for me because I simply cannot divorce Haru’s relationship towards water from his relationship with Rin, as the show has shown the two of them so closely intertwined. So when KyoAni opted to show Haru logically explaining his reason as opposed to making us feel that conviction, it easily paralleled how detached I felt from his emotions regarding Rin: the lines were all there, but they did not feel like they came from that place beneath reason, the place we have all seen Haru capable of tapping into, in S1 – because it simply mattered so much, back then. While one would think there is literally nothing more important than Haru’s future, we never got to see that same, passionate side of him again; and since the show has always referenced Rin during moments of Haru “being fired up”, it’s easy to understand why detachment with one would lead to my detachment with the other.

Compare, if you will: we all know Rin is 100% serious about swimming. This is something the season made sure we didn’t forget. But another thing the season also didn’t want us to forget was how absolutely, 100% serious Rin was about Haru – whether through constantly referencing him, Sousuke making jabs about him, Sousuke telling Haru Rin “needs” him, or Rin dragging Haru to another country to admit his admiration (twice), this could not have been more plainly obvious. So when I say, “I wish Haru had told Rin how much he admired him, too,” it’s not because I feel Haru owes Rin anything for his feelings, but because they are in direct parallel with his attitude towards his entire future, and by failing to muster up any visible enthusiasm towards that future, it unavoidably affects how I see him perceiving that future with Rin.

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(i’m gonna keep using this screenshot until it no longer breaks my heart)

People like to handwave a lot of the aforementioned away by only calling S2 a thematic parallel to S1 (which it definitely also is), but I think that approach invariably also forgets that in many ways, S1 was already a parallel – to High Speed. The fact that Haru wanted to grant Rin that “sight” at Rin’s lowest point in life spoke volumes of how important it had been, once upon a time, for Haru to witness the exact same thing. This is why I’m personally not fond of the idea that Australia happened simply because Rin “had a favour to return”. As I said, it’s far easier for me to read it as Rin’s commitment to his future, one he directly expressed he wanted to share with Haru; given that up until now Haru had specifically avoided having to make a similar commitment to anything, I sure as hell wasn’t expecting him to conclude that emotional journey with reciting his decision to the Iwatobi kids like a recipe off a box of Honey Nut Cheerios.

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No, I did not need Haru crying all over Rin with undying gratitude. No, I don’t think he owed Rin anything in the first place. Yes, I did expect to see Haru more fired up about his future, of the potential and possibilities, because the show has repeatedly alluded to that part inside him that is capable of being fired up to that extent at all. Yes, KyoAni deciding not to visually represent this spark unavoidably affects how I ended up viewing Haru’s current relationship with Rin, too.

I don’t feel admitting this means forfeiting some kind of cosmic war of ships (there is literally nothing more infuriating about this season than Haru’s entire future becoming nothing but a pawn in the MH vs RH war, as if Haru as a person doesn’t matter at all); I don’t feel admitting that means I’m being pessimistic about their future, either. Nothing that occurred in S2 (or rather, didn’t occur) can ever take away from the impact of S1, and merely the promise of a future (together?) implies that there is so much room for growth and change. A future is full of promise, which is why I never felt like I had any real reason for disappointment. It was what I wanted, after all. But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss seeing that dynamic now, having already grown, the way KyoAni taunted us already in the first episode of Season 2: of the companionship, the teasing, the spark that made us roll on the floor after the duet drama CD.

Or, to put it in less tl;dr terms – remember when we were all saying “oh, who needs fic! who needs doujin! canon is wilder than we could ever imagine!” And how many of us are retreating back to fic, doujin and art now – just for the sake of any emotional closure at all?

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Again, when it comes right down to it, all of the above is fine. If this is the Haru they wanted to give us, then it is the Haru I will accept and readjust my personal perception to accommodate. But I also can’t help but question the logic behind that execution all the same: if they wanted us to believe Haru’s conviction of being a professional swimmer, was that really the way to accomplish it the best? If they wanted to present Rin and Haru as equals, why did they find it more important to portray this through having Haru reminisce over flashbacks of Rin to the Iwatobi SC, as opposed to doing what he did in S1 and actually expressing these same thoughts to Rin? I mean, I can come up with a thousand logical excuses or reasons for both questions, but at the end of the day I doubt none of it will ever stop me from returning to the question I brought up in regards to how KyoAni decided to handle the Sousuke + Haru dynamic:

what, exactly, did we gain more through this portrayal of Haruka instead?

A message from Anonymous
(1)The free! fandom post episode 13 was so divided between the people who were absurdly happy and couldn't accept others didn't feel the same and the people who were throwing a fit and shitting on the good things too, so I really appreciate reading your posts because it made me feel like I wasn't the only one who failed to connect emotionally to the story and therefore could neither be happy or sad, unless I sat there and put everything into perspective.

(2)I love when fiction makes me think about things irl too, but this time it felt like I was forcing myself to think more deeply about it, not because the episode inspired me to do that, but just so I could get some peace of mind. Which is not a bad thing at all, and I don’t blame anyone who is doing it for themselves and to help others cope, but it also feels like it’s just a way to sweep under the rug the valid criticism to the pacing and storytelling that cannot be excused so easily.

I guess it says a lot about the crowd I hang out with (…which is to say none, really) that the reactions I’ve only really come across were just… dumbfounded, really. Not upset or angry, just confused and indifferent. Which, again, to me is far worse than outright anger, but also means there’s no… point? in shitting all over it, as opposed to just trying to understand how things ended up this way. The easy answer is “lol cos it’s a shit show with shit writing” but I don’t believe in such absolutes, I believe in the slowly accumulating list of executional errors (or choices, if you’d rather not view them as mistakes) that ultimately yielded what we all witnessed, to varying degrees of emotional satisfaction.

I guess it just makes me very relieved that I’m not the only one benefiting from trying to dig through that initial layer of disappointment to understand it, so thank you for your messages! Like you, I understand if some people would rather ignore the criticism and just revel in what was good about the show, and while I don’t believe in those kind of absolutes either, I’m going to do my best not to force it down anyone’s throat. I totally understand if anyone unfollows/mutes me for it, and they have every right to. Hopefully, once time and emotional distance does its trick, I’ll be able to write about the better things again, too – because there were a lot! And I’d love to discuss them! But right now it would feel kind of… insincere? to praise aspects of this show without uprooting all the things that I can’t stand behind with as much dedication, because when I do write about the good things, I want them to ring true with more than just logic and reason.

Because that’s what I always loved about this show the most; the ability to make me feel things, with or without reason.

(wow am i melodramatic today or what)

J-World Kuroko no Basuke Halloween Event

i am literally crying right now of pure joy knowing i’ll get to go to this and eat that goddamn stupid mukkun monster of an ice cream probably

A message from matsuoka-lin
"shouldering the blame" <- I almost coughed up a hairball at this point, omfg. I choked on my cereal. x'D Thanks for that! (PFFT DON'T LET THOSE PEOPLE GET YOU DOWN. I think a lot of us are a little underwhelmed and there's nothing wrong with that? It's your blog, your rules. On the other hand, sometimes I do understand that Anonymous' sentiment - when people who's opinion you respect are suddenly rather negative about a thing you liked, it can be a bit of a shock. But no need to be rude. JFC.)

(Not that you’ve been super negative or anything. X.x Tumblr’s ask box is too small, damn it! I meant more in general, not YOU specifically, too. I JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO USE MY WORDS SOMETIMES. I’m sorry. *laughs!* I’ve been pretty negative too… A LOT of people have, even though I’ve seen nobody ragequit yet? But I think maybe Anonymous’ reaction is partly “NO, NO! YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT AND STAY HERE IN FANDOM WITH ME 4EVER!” maybe. Or I’m just projecting. x’D I’ll shut up now.)

Hahah, thank you for the comments! I hope it’s ok I publish this, because I do think what you said is very true about the “shock” factor, and is something people should consider when their initial reaction kicks in.

One of the reasons I wanted to watch all the episodes alone was so I could experience them for myself, not knowing the fandom’s opinion – sometimes it aligned with mine, sometimes it didn’t. But the important thing for everyone (myself included!) to remember is just to be confident about what you like. Of course, reading legitimate criticism can be the worst kind of buzzkill, but it doesn’t negate from your initial reaction. It doesn’t make it worth less. But it doesn’t mean it’s worth more than the reaction of those who felt let down, either, which is why I wish people stopped putting so much value on who agrees with them and who doesn’t.

Also, man, I sure as hell hope nobody thinks me having criticism for S2 means I’m ~leaving fandom, since that couldn’t be further from the truth. I tend to criticize the shit out of the things I love, if just because I hold them in that much higher regard (even if sometimes the things I love are complete trash lmao). While I’m not sure if said anon specifically respected/cared for my opinion in the first place, I’m always bound to do things based on what inspire me, and right now what inspires me is trying to unearth the reasons why I felt the way I did. Nothing more. And I can tell from the reactions of people that I’m not the only one.

A message from Anonymous
(1/3) yeah i was reserving judgement on haru's decision to go pro until i heard what he had to say about it & i wasn't really satisfied by it? his decision in the end was "i want to swim more" it's a clear callback to sousuke's own words but i'm not sure what they were going for with that? i'm gonna have to think more on it, but all i can think rn is that it would have had more impact if the sousuke-haru subplot had actually gone somewhere.

(2/3)(i think they were going for a repeat performance of rin&rei’s interactions in the last season, but the execution was clumsier this time around. or maybe they just didn’t have time for it?? this season was rushed both in the sense of not having enough screentime to do everything they wanted & in the literal sense. they only had a year to make this season & they didn’t have the solid foundation high speed gave season 1, so it’s understandable this season is less polished than the previous 1.

(3/3) hopefully the inevitable movie will be more evenly paced - i don’t think there’s a chance we aren’t getting 1. they had so much to cram into the last episode & they chose to animate ren & ran saying makoto will definitely come home instead? looks like a hook for a movie to me - & we’ll get to see haru getting fired up about his dream in it.)

Alright, sorry for taking so long to respond!

The fact that the Haru-Sousuke subplot never really got closure is one of the things that, logically speaking, bugs me the most about this season. I did quickly figure it couldn’t directly parallel the Rin & Rei from S1 (because while thematically similar, Haru’s way of dealing with confrontation is so unlike Rin’s own), but neither the actual scene nor the aftermath ended up serving much of a purpose. Again, I’m willing to accept this is just how it is, but I can’t help but feel puzzled as to what we gained from this as opposed to what I anticipated might happen.

To illustrate: instead of the final sentiment ringing out as “you gotta do this because Rin lol”, Sousuke’s gift to Haru could have come in the form of “you better figure out your shit before you miss that chance and then it might be too late”. Not a plead, not a demand, just cold hard facts. Because Sousuke, if anyone, would know. As for the aftermath, I feel like it would have been so important for Sousuke, too; to gain confidence in “passing on” that dream to Haru without feeling like he was being replaced by someone who didn’t deserve it. Because Haru’s conviction could have shined through in something other than blood, sweat and tears – Haru could have shown Sousuke a different reason for pursuing that dream, one that might have been different from his and Rin’s, but nonetheless as important and driven. And maybe I could have believed him, too.

What we got wasn’t that, of course. Ultimately, it simply wasn’t the story KyoAni wanted to tell. But as I said, I feel puzzled as to why they felt that instead of giving the Sousuke + Haruka subplot closure, it was more important to cram episode 13 full of flashbacks and dead air when already strapped for time; then again, I could ask that same question of most of the episodes with jarringly mishandled pacing, and likely come up short. Like you said, not having High Speed! to back S2 up meant this was always one of the unfortunate yet likely outcomes, but what complicates matters even more is that they did include things like Kisumi, yet completely fail to capitalize on the Haru + Sousuke interaction from High Speed! 2. This is what repeatedly stumps me: all the potential, and all the ways it was never employed. I’m not saying they had to, just that it leaves me baffled if they had all that at their disposal (unless there were timing conflicts, of course), yet decided to go with this instead.

At this point I’m not sure what to expect from future endeavors, because like you said, there’s… probably bound to be a movie, on top of the upcoming episode 14. I do hope that if they have all that time at hand, they’ll use it more thoughtfully. I will watch it, and I will try my damnest to love it, because I don’t think there’s anything that could ever make me quit this show; but I guess the success rate of that only really depends on if they truly have a story to tell.

a quick irrelevant personal post before bed

cos i spent the past 2 hrs on the bus digging through my photoroll and wanted to immortalize these screencaps as something i like to call “classic Marta / sugadai

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an elusive pissed off airinmine appears

Thanks to everyone who sent me messages, I’ll get back to you on them as soon as I get home! To be honest, I wasn’t going to entertain this topic with any more attention because it hardly deserves any, but then decided to make a rare exception to address this issue more directly – and less diplomatically than I normally would, which is why I understand if comes off as drama-mongering or disappointing, for which I apologize in advance. But after hearing that other people have gotten disgruntled messages about their inability to unconditionally love episode 13, I’m honestly just gonna put this as simply as I can:

Stop trying to make others feel like shit for already feeling like shit for not being able to enjoy the finale (or the vast majority of this season) as much as they had hoped.

Seriously.

We all wanted to love it. Some of us did love it. Some of us didn’t. I would say the ones who did are by far more fortunate in that regard – so what exactly makes anyone think it’s their god given right to give anyone even more shit for failing to connect with what they did? And more to the point: why the hell do you feel the need to?

Another person not liking what you like does not invalidate what you like. If something makes you happy, embrace it, treasure it, be confident in it. Trying to deny others the right to their individual emotional experience is not only incredibly shitty but the exact epitome of self-entitlement that people are accusing others of; moreover, it reeks of insecurity, in all the ways other people are not obligated to put up with just because you cannot grasp the extent of legitimate criticism.

I’d understand all the vitriol if I was talking about the kind of people who drag on everything, call creators names, and generally act like brats as salty and pressed as tsukemono just because they felt discontent. But I’m not. As much as I believe that kind of behavior must exist in certain corners of the fandom, too, what I’m talking about are people with very different priorities and favorite characters and ships, who get ragged on for being unreasonable because they felt underwhelmed. I’m talking about completely regular fans who were looking forward to the finale, yet now feel ashamed that they couldn’t love it. And for what reason, exactly? So that a select few people can continue to pretend like there was nothing at all to criticize about this season, just because they didn’t mind the actual execution itself?

Come on, son.

It’s a fucking TV show. I get that. Yet we’re here because we were all emotionally invested, and for some of us that gamble did not pay off. That’s life. We’ll all deal, in different ways. But when you try to stop others from dealing with their feelings in a way that does not hurt anyone else, then you need to sit the fuck down.

(in b4:

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A message from Anonymous
Free! was not made just to please you and satisfy what /you/ wanted from the show. I understand you're disappointed, but you sounded really self-entitled in 'on the finale, round 1'.

Hi there, anon!

You know what, that may be so — there’s a great chance i did come off as self-entitled in that post, given that those were my initial feelings right after the finale, which i also expressed was a complicated mixture of my technical issues and personal bias. If you take a look at my blog, you might be relieved to find that I have discussed the topic since, and expressed the fact that while the execution was not one that left me emotionally engaged, I nonetheless respect the writers’ decision to tell it in this manner. That is always, always their prerogative.

But I would like you to also take a look at the message you’ve sent me, and ask yourself why you wanted to send it. Why does it upset you that I felt so indifferent about the episode, and was subsequently upset by that indifference? Why do you feel the need to “reprimand” anyone for disclosing that disappointment, when I nonetheless did so in a manner that acknowledged my personal bias? Naturally, it’s too bad if I failed to be 100% diplomatic and neutral in that post (at least, to the point where you felt it necessary to call me out on it), but I also do not feel I expressed unhappiness at the actual events that transpired. I very clearly stated that, as a matter of fact, I “got what I wanted”, but that the execution (which had been going on all season) meant the emotional impact never translated how I expected. And I feel that’s an honest to god shame.

Now, perhaps the ultimate fault DOES lie with me — maybe, indeed, I am simply ungrareful for expecting proper closure on, idk, sousuke and haruka’s conflict. Or an actual climax in a season finale. Or to feel anything at all. I have no problem shouldering that blame, and I gladly would, if it meant I could look at episode 13 as a shining example of a story coming full circle. But I can’t. I’m not sitting here kicking and screaming that things didn’t go how I wanted — I’m sitting here honest about the fact that the story KyoAni told and the one I experienced were not ultimately one and the same.

I’ll get over it, of course.
I’m sure you’ll get over my self-entitlement too.

A message from g-script
Though I'm glad that Haru pursues swimming on his own before he joins Rin, so that he can grasp his dream first before following in Rin's footsteps, and I'm glad he expresses his appreciation for Rin in some way - it really is so, so bittersweet, that moment between them when they get back. I didn't realize what it was about that scene that was both touching and also sad until I read your post, oh man. I'm still such a mess over this episode...

Yeah… I’ve noticed that a lot of people have felt this almost ashamed “I know I should be happy but for some reason I’m not” -mentality, which can be the worst outcome of all; next to those who “loved it!” or are saying “be happy with what you have!”, it can feel like there’s something wrong with you for not feeling it, or like you’re being lumped in with the kind of ungrateful fans who just bitch and whine about the show not catering to every single one of their whims. But I don’t believe this is one of those cases at all. I think it’s the slow buildup of the season failing to deliver emotional closure for a lot of people, myself included, and I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t also want to explore and understand the true reason for that emotional indifference.

If the season, or just episode 13 alone, made a viewer happy – great! Then it achieved its purpose, and I am so glad for you. But I think, for those of us who it did not resonate as strongly with, being allowed a kind of “grieving process” is just as important; we’re letting go of something that has been a big part of our lives for two years. It doesn’t mean the journey was all bad, or that we regret it in its entirety; but regardless of what extra material we might come to get, this is Season 2, and if that did not hit you like a thousand bricks? Well, now you have to learn to live with the knowledge that it probably never will.

Giving up hope is the worst part of any separation process. I know that sounds melodramatic as shit, but the whole reason we’re here is because we were always over-invested in this, and to deny anyone the chance to work through their feelings of guilt and disappointment (for having failed to connect with something they love, at least as much as they had wanted to) is only going to lead to more resentment. Which is why, although I don’t want to spread negativity per se, I’m more than willing to talk about all of that; because it helps me accept my own feelings regarding the topic as well, until, as I posted right after the finale –

but as the years go by the dark moments lift like rain clouds do

(to the anon who also msg’d me: i’ll get back to your thoughts once i come home after the weekend!)